Wishing My Life Away
I am not preaching to anyone but myself. Why do I tend to live for the next event instead of enjoying today? I say things like, “I’m going to take a quick shower, go to the restroom real quick, run to the store, pay bills real fast…”. You get the drift. I truly don’t know if I ever say, “I’m going to go take a long, hot bath, or go leisurely stroll the mall, take a nap in the hammock, organize the bills and get a budget set.” Why?? Do I not deserve to take time without rushing through every task?
Running To Relax
Sounds like an oxymoron, but in my case, it is not. We recently settled in our new home and can honestly say that not regularly running for two months while in transition was causing havoc on my attitude. When I run; I relax, I pray, listen to inspirational music, reflect on my attitude, and get in a state of gratitude. Since my office is at home, lunch breaks consist of 3 mile runs. Yes, it is hard to go back in doors to my computer; but my mind is clearer and feel less stressed. During these recent runs, I reflected and realized that I am rushing through each day to the next.
Yesterday when I was running, I walked back in my gate to this lovely sight.
Did I want to just lay in the hammock instead of working? Of course! However, I was in the mindset of gratitude and being thankful to God that I have a job, a home, and my health. So I took a moment to breathe in the crisp air and headed back in with a happy heart.
I was diagnosed with cancer the second time in 2009 the week before Christmas. We spent the next 2 weeks of the holidays waiting to see what my treatment options and prognosis was. Instead of this being a sad time; it was not only my favorite Christmas, but the closest I have ever felt to God, Keith, the girls, and my family and friends. God is always there, but when we face trials and surrender our fears to Him, His presence is tangible with a pure sense of peace. Christmas Eve we had a surprise of snow and will never forget that silent night, playing in the snow with our family in our PJ’s on this White Christmas. Time stood still.
12 Days of Christmas
Here I go counting days again. 😆 This is actually when I wish for time to stop. I adore the season and want to purposefully take these 12 days til Christmas to live in each moment with a heart of love and gratitude while remembering God’s sacrificial gift to mankind. Since we live closer to our girls, we are having frequent visits that fill my heart with joy. Ruthie came to visit last weekend and Audree, Hallee, Ivy, and Hazel come this weekend. Christmas cookies, Christmas movies, strolls down a trail; with echoes of laughter is what calms my soul.
💚My “Fab Five”❤️
I love to run and run to stay healthy. After cancer, I started running more and run a half marathon every year. My philosophy is “It is me vs. me.” I try to avoid getting caught up on how fast my time is, but do wish I was faster. Most importantly, just thankful I am healthy.